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Jan. 13th, 2019 09:01 pmMy day in a nutshell:
Get 0 sleep
Force body to function via a combination of oatmeal, caffeine and marijuana
Magically un-glitch the Sciviner replacement program I've been using on the Pi.
Spend rest of day transferring all 70k of Pathfinder AU *back into* said program.
Write another 2k just because I'm a masochist
Put on Pandora while writing
Get absurdly emotional because the songs and the writing keep lining up in the most heartbreaking ways imaginable.
Give up writing because at that point I'm literally cry-typing.
Realize that a near-death of a character will always be harder, emotionally than a straight up death scene because the moment that terrible, desperate hope is rewarded is the moment the characters are allowed to break down and lose their shit at the *potential* of loss. Potential can be so much worse than the reality of the situation because potential loss makes us confront what we are losing as we are losing it, where as real lose is like ripping off a bandaid. The sting fades. Not to with the near loss and the near misses. Those stay with you, and hopefully the audience.
How was everybody else's day?
Get 0 sleep
Force body to function via a combination of oatmeal, caffeine and marijuana
Magically un-glitch the Sciviner replacement program I've been using on the Pi.
Spend rest of day transferring all 70k of Pathfinder AU *back into* said program.
Write another 2k just because I'm a masochist
Put on Pandora while writing
Get absurdly emotional because the songs and the writing keep lining up in the most heartbreaking ways imaginable.
Give up writing because at that point I'm literally cry-typing.
Realize that a near-death of a character will always be harder, emotionally than a straight up death scene because the moment that terrible, desperate hope is rewarded is the moment the characters are allowed to break down and lose their shit at the *potential* of loss. Potential can be so much worse than the reality of the situation because potential loss makes us confront what we are losing as we are losing it, where as real lose is like ripping off a bandaid. The sting fades. Not to with the near loss and the near misses. Those stay with you, and hopefully the audience.
How was everybody else's day?
